Exhausted

Recently I have been so exhausted. I can not wait until my hematologist appointment on thursday. I just want to know what is going on. Recently i have been getting more migraines, and dizzy spells. Not to mention the weight gain... after losing 70 lbs gaining 10 is a night mare!!! The other nightmare is the hair loss. I lose more and more each day. Its frustrating.... anyway, just voicing some frustrations. im exhausted so im gonna relax with my puppies and try to get some sleep.

Fears

Fears... Everyone has them, some have a fear of the dark, of heights. Personally I have a fear of snakes however recently I have a new fear. The fear of loss. With all this shit my body is going through it scares me. It scares me for all the losses I can endure. The loss of my hair (I was blessed with beautiful German hair that does everything perfect and rarely has a bad day). The loss of the ones I love. At any moment they can say it's all too much and walk out. Over the past few days as everything comes into perspective I've had people say to not worry and wait to talk to the doctors. Well that's fine and dandy but when you wake up in the morning and your entire body feels like you just got hit with a truck you might have a slight bit of worry. I found out today that a parent of a family friend is going thought a similar condition currently. Although we don't know if that's really what I have, just speculating. They have to do so much and it's pretty rough. But I am determined I will relax and wait for the doctors then do what I can to overcome this obstacle.

Okay well it's bed time. Hopefully I will be able to sleep a full night and won't feel like a truck ran over me in the morning so I can go to work.

Good night all! :-*

Work Work Work

Good Morning Loves :)

Work is blah this morning with all of the month end whopla done we are starting a new month.

Its been a rough last few weeks. Being sick sucks & not in the flu/cold sick type of way. Its scary when there is something wrong with your body but you have no clue what it is. It really freaks me out. Im currently scheduled to go see a Hematologist within a month to find out if its a blood disorder that is messing me all up or something else.

Anyways back to the happy side of my life... Halloween is coming up!!! That means Thanksgiving, Black Friday & Christmas are right around the corner! I so can not wait!!!

Well now work is picking back up so I better get back, I really am going to try and be better at posting more often. It will be easier with the holidays cause I always get to do more Crafts, Decorate and try new Recipes!!!

Until Later...